Another brick in the wall


Life is sometimes simply getting through the day. No matter how much I would like to face each day with hope or happiness, sometimes I struggle with everything that going on in my world, or not going on.

The past ten days it’s been hard to muster up the energy to write my blog. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say, but rather than I’ve always been of the belief that if I don’t have anything good to say, then it may be better not to say anything at all. Nobody wants to hear from a downer or a constant complainer.

Let’s face it. It hasn’t been a great week or two.

One of my favorite cousins died. He was one of my favorites because although we didn’t really know each other all that well, he was someone with similar interests to mine, particularly researching and growing the family tree. I’ll miss his quiet thoughtfulness and good ideas.

This past week has seen an explosion in the new coronavirus spreading out from Hunan, China. In a blog post I wrote last year about global warming, and why it isn’t the most important thing in the world, I didn’t mention pandemics, but this could just as easily become one, and it could kill millions around the world before it runs its course. Scary.

Trump was acquitted in Congress. This blog is not generally explicitly political about US politics or politics outside of Canada at all. To me his acquittal demonstrates with certainty that a person doesn’t have to be a quality human being to get ahead in life. He lies, lies and lies some more, and his followers, which include almost every Republican in the US, doesn’t care whatsoever.

Sometimes life is just getting through the day.

Kobe died. Along with his daughter and eight others. In a helicopter crash. Being famous and mostly a good person is not guarantee of anything either. Certainly, Kobe is a inspiration to millions of kids, and this won’t change that. Still it sucks.

And to top it all off I’ve had this bloody flu all week and still feel the pits. My car broke down. And I’m still distressed about the state of my relationship with my NP. Life would have been so much simpler if I had been conventional, instead of not. My partner would have been so much happier. I don’t know if that would have been true for me, or not. But I’m still the man I have always been, and although I’ve followed the more difficult path, I’m not actually sure that there was any other possible path for me.

So, in summary. I hope the next week or two things improve, especially my attitude. I’m going to work a little harder at counting my blessings, and let go of my current miasma.

8 thoughts on “Another brick in the wall

  1. I’m sorry to hear you’ve been unwell (flu) – I hope you recover quickly. As we age, common illnesses always seem to take a little longer to heal too, so take care and get plenty of rest, hydrate with plenty of water (preferably filtered) and a light diet for a week or two. High doses of Vitamin C, while not protecting you against colds and flu, can help reduce the duration of your virus.

    Losing a family member or friend is always sad, even if you aren’t close and haven’t seen other very often.

    Personally, I don’t mind if you blog about the negative things as I know all too well, the highs and lows in life – especially if you have a serious health condition. Keep in mind that this is your blog and you can write about anything you like, not necessarily just the good things that readers may want to hear.

    Remember life is not easy for anyone, even those who appear to be lucky in love, health, finances, career etc. Generally, people only tell you about the good things and don’t like to reveal their innermost thoughts and worries, hence seemingly appear to have ‘perfect’ lives. They don’t. You never know what is just around the corner.

    Sometimes, it helps to put your feelings down in writing to help ease your frustration and pain.

    Remember a problem shared is a problem halved.

    Lastly, we can only hope D.T. gets voted out in the next election…..somehow. We need another Obama in this world (let alone the U.S.). Even I am fed up with his lies, loud mouth and lack of discretion and integrity.

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  2. Yeah, you’ve got Trump all wrong, but a lot of libs do. Don’t feel too bad about it. If what Trump did was wrong, Paul Ryan would have been the incumbent and Trump never would have run. I’d bet you have no idea who Paul Ryan is and how that ties in to everything. Don’t expect you to.

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  3. Yeah, life doesn’t throw us many good things, and apart from that, it seems that on the whole, nobody cares. I lost my mother 11 weeks ago and a good uncle died 3 weeks ago, and I expect mainly due to age, several more may pass on by the end of this year. My wife was rostered on for only given 12 hours for the next two weeks and I have chronic fatigue, from damage done years ago. But hey, who wants to be normal? Look over the wall, not at it.

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  4. So sorry to hear about your cousin. And I agree with one of the other comments about writing to get your feelings out. I’ve kept a journal for years for just that reason. Grief is love with nowhere to go. We all grieve in our own way and then find another avenue to send that love, respect or relationship. These are troubling times and we all need to self-care as much as we can. For our higher energies are needed to keep the world moving forward. As far as the current events, consider them opportunities for growth. If Hillary had won, we would never had been made aware of the underlying racism, greed and complacency that permeates our country. DT is doing exactly what he is supposed to do. And that is to shake us out of our complacency. Our politicians need become more aware of the void DT fills and do the same hopefully, in a more mature, compassionate manner. Pandemics, global warming, etc. are all calls for each of us to step up and take action. Lessons abound for us. It will be up to us to learn them the easy way. But for now. Take care of you. Honor yourself for who you are and how you have made a difference in this crazy world. Send love out to the world, not fear.Yes, even to all those Republicans. As the Dali Lama says, focus on what we have in common rather than on our differences. It makes such a difference. Blessings to you.

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