My fasting journey has just begun.

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No matter how far we are going on a journey, each step is a new beginning. When I began intermittent fasting, back in July, I knew from the start that it is a long term project, and progress measured in weeks, months and even years. My incentives for giving it my best shot are huge – better health, a longer life and a more enjoyable and energetic present.

What I didn’t know, at least not in my heart, is that every day would require a new, fresh commitment to the plan. I sort of thought that my inertia would carry me along long enough to sustain me until I reach my goals, which are tangible, measurable and, hopefully, achievable.

Well, no such luck. Almost every day I fast I find myself feeling extremely positive about what I’m doing. Almost every day I’m not fasting I find myself haunted by doubts. I feel like I’m not losing weight fast enough, I’m not managing my insulin and medications well enough, and whatever I’m eating is working directly against my goals. I see a perfectly normal person walk by and I think to myself, “What a fat slob”. Because I’m afraid that somehow I’ll lose my commitment and indulge myself in foods that I don’t even really like or want anymore.

And I’m still less than a half the distance to my weight loss goal, and still unsure about how long it will take me to get to the point where I don’t need my diabetes medications and insulin any longer. I guess I’ll know when I get there, because both goals are measurable, and there is external evidence that I’m making good progress on both fronts. But in the meantime, I feel a little bit lost at sea, from time to time. The worst times are when I’m eating, and wondering if I can really afford this whatever.

I tried to pretend that I wasn’t obese. It didn’t work, and I still became more and more seriously ill with diabetes and its complications. Something had to change, or I would die of the disease and complications from the disease.

I also know that even when I reach my weight goal, and my ambition to defeat metabolic disorder, and eliminate my diabetes, that I will then have to undertake another journey. Maintaining my healthy body will require vigilance, and committing to a healthy low carb diet, not for a while, but for the rest of my life. So the change I am currently experiencing through intermittent fasting will only be sustainable if I commit fully to the change in lifestyle needed to maintain the results.

Intermittent fasting is a little like travelling through a very long tunnel, at the end of which is new territory I’ve never seen before. There’s also probably more intermittent fasting in the future, if I really intend to maintain my health gains and not go back to obesity and diabetes.

This doesn’t discourage me, but it does present me with a challenge in the present, which is that my level of commitment to a certain and achievable weight and health goals must be followed by an endless journey, if the effort being made now isn’t to be completely wasted.

At that’s just a little intimidating. Well, maybe not just a little. Maybe a lot.

13 thoughts on “My fasting journey has just begun.

  1. Hey Don
    How are you ?
    Other than the fasting how is the rest of your day/ days going?
    I’m sorry I left town and just walked over the Rockies but bright blue skies most days but damn cold…..
    I hope all worked out and your financial situation took a weight off your shoulders .
    I still chat with Jan Collins so I’ll say to and from her lol
    Take Care Mr Wilson

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  2. What makes you happy?
    Which song lyrics are resonating with you right now?
    Could you write a poem about your end goal?

    This journey is going to get tough, is there a creative practice that could help you? You can find people on a similar path on WordPress, maybe reach out to them and help each other through. You are doing an incredibly brave thing, keep going 🌟

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  3. Sharing your journey here is a powerful act in building a support network to encourage you—because it is hard work that will really never be done.
    But you ARE doing it!
    If I had one piece of wisdom to share it would be to act with compassion towards yourself. The key to long-term success is not necessarily never “failing” but rather to pick yourself up and try again when you do. We’re all rooting for you!! 👍


    • I hear you, but it’s hard to be kind to myself. Being accountable has never meant giving myself a break at all. If anything it has always meant to keep the pressure on all the time. Not necessarily the best bet, but alas, there I go.

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      • Another way to think about it might be the rewards you give yourself for effort (not outcome). And I don’t mean food rewards…but self-care such as a favorite book, massage, event, etc or just saying to yourself “go me!”

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